She was a punk rocker. He was a sadist.
She loved his firm hand when he pierced her body.
(MF, piercing, masochism, sadism, bond)
by Ripper X
New York City, 1973
I guess that it started out that I just wanted
to do something crazy, you know? You are sitting there, just wondering
what you can do to piss off your parents, but it ends up as something
totally different, something completely sexual.
I remember my first piercing. It was my
nose. My father's reaction to the whole thing was, "What?
God give you too pretty of a face that you have to go and fuck
it up?"
I guess that that was why I went and got
it done really. I was too plain, just another girl with a pretty
face.
It was Joe who did it. It was Joe that called
me back into that tiny little room sat me down in the leather
chair, and poke.
It wasn't like when you're six and getting
your ears pierced for the first time; it was pain. Pain mixed
with pleasure. The feeling of lying there, letting the piercer
hurt you, letting him stick you with that needle and feeling that
ring enter your flesh. The pain feels so good, the feeling of
cold metal sliding into you, your body pulsing with endorphin.
I guess that anyone could do that, but Joe.... Man, Joe did it
so well. Joe could hurt me so bad; and he enjoyed it.
Soon I was going in once a week, getting a
different piercing, letting Joe stab me with needles. First it
was my nose, and then my belly button; the next week it was my
nipples. Every week, man, a new piercing, a new pain that Joe
would inflict upon my willing body.
But that isn't what I want to talk about,
I am going to tell you something that I need you to swear to me
that you won't tell another soul.
Please promise me.
As a friend, man.
Okay, you know what happened last week right.
Well I lied to the cops, just listen to me, okay. I had to.
Okay, it actually started a month ago. I walked
into Graveyard Dreams. I knew that it was probably going to be
the last time unless I was going to get a tattoo, which I definitely
don't want. I had sixteen piercing already, and I knew that I
only had one left to do. You know, the big one, ha ha.
I sat down and waited for Joe, looking through
his tattoo magazines until he was done piercing this guy's tongue.
Joe came out giving me that sexy psychotic look of his saying,
"You again!" I just kind of looked down and laughed.
"Get back here, you sicko," he laughed,
pointing to the back room.
I sat in the leather chair and waited for
him to finish getting the other guy's money. He came in after
a little while and closed the door behind him.
"Are you going to try to tell me that
you thought of another body part that you want a hole in?"
he asked as he locked the door.
"Well, if you don't mind looking at my
pussy, Joe," I told him acting like a dumb blond.
His eyes, man, you should have seen his eyes.
Just the mere mention of it made his eyes brighten up like a little
kid at Christmas, man. I thought that he was going to loose it
right there, I mean it.
"You are such an evil little girl,"
he says to me as he turned to prepare some new tools. "What
is it about you anyway?"
"It's you Joe," I said, standing
up and taking off my jeans. I didn't want to ruin any of my panties
with blood stains, so I went without. However I am sure that Joe
would have loved to see my panties, but anyway.... I took a deep
breath and thought about his question for a little while.
"I think that it is the way that your
hands touching my flesh somehow... rapes me," I said trying
by best to put my true feeling into words. "I love the feeling
of being so helpless to youjust squeeze my eyes tight and
wait for your gentle touch to turn into a sharp, mind-absorbing
pain."
God, even the thought turns me on!
Naked below the waist, I took my seat and
watched him bring over a tray of rings. I saw a nice silver one
that I liked. He took it out and put the tray back on his bench.
"So, Kaila," he said as he plopped
the ring in a clear jar of sanitizer, "You enjoy me hurting
you. That's why you keep coming back?"
He looked at me. I sat reclined showing him
exactly what he wanted to see. I could see his penis hardening
under his jeans as his eyes looked over my body. He kind of shook
his head as he fished out the rings with a pair of tweezers.
"No matter how hard I try I just can't
seem to figure you women out." His hand ran up my inner thigh
as he bent over and whispered, "Well I hope I hurt you bad
enough, Kaila."
I just about lost it man; my pussy got so hot
and wet, ha ha, I know I had to have left a spot on the chair.
I just lay there as Joe fondled and played with my clit. I could
feel the tip of the needle touch it. My hands balled up into fists;
my toes curled; I knew that it was coming.
I waited and waited. It seemed like eternity,
man. My body slowly lost its tension; I feared looking, but had
to. I slightly opened up one eye to see Joe staring at me, then
it hit. I felt the needle press into my clit hard until it finally
cut into the flesh. The pain shot from my groin. My whole body
tightened at once. All that was real was the pain, and just when
it began to subside, then BAM! He punched it all the way through.
Oh man, it was so great....
And when it was finished. After the ring was
in place. I looked up and seen that I wasn't the only one breathing
hard.
That's how I thought it would end. I thought
that he had given me the ultimate pleasure that anyone could hope
to receive. I would stay up late at night and play with the ring;
I would fondle it, the sore tender flesh of my pussy would hurt
less and less each night as the wound slowly healed.
I would pull on it and pretend that it was
Joe who was hurting me, recreating the piercing over and over
in my mind. Well that was the last time that I thought that I
would see old Joe. The last time that he could please me. Needless
to say, I was wrong.
I was sitting at the club having a bourbon
and Coke when he sat down beside me at the bar. I didn't even
notice that it was him until he said, "So, did it heal up
okay?"
I kind of looked at him for a while until I
realized what he was talking about. He ordered himself a drink,
and we had a short conversation about nothing. He said that he
was moving on. He had closed the shop and he was going to go down
to New Orleans where the big cash was. I could feel my heart seem
to break. I didn't want him to go, I thought about asking to go
with, but you know as well as I do that there would be nothing
for me to do down there.
"I will miss you Joe," I said, kissing
him on the cheek before saying fuck it all and really kissed him.
I stuck my tongue so far down his throat that I'm lucky I didn't
gag him. He kissed back though. He took me into a tight embrace
that led us up to his bedroom. He had most of his shit packed
already. Wasn't much but about six cardboard boxes. We fucked
on his bare mattress.
He was so ruff with me, God it felt so good.
His hand around my throat, once in a while his teeth would dig
into my neck. His dick thrusting in and out of me, harder and
faster the closer that he came to cumming. We fucked for about
two hours until we both just collapsed.
We just lay there, our chests heaving, drenched
with sweat. Suddenly, he grabbed me and kissed me as hard as he
could.
"You know that it doesn't have to be like
this." he said very quickly, those blue eyes of his just
staring through me.
"What do you mean?" I asked confused
"Did you mean what you said, Kaila? Do
you really enjoy me hurting you? Do you truly find so much pleasure
in your pain?"
I just kind of stared at him for a while, not
knowing were he was going with this. I could only nod.
"I have a question for you Kaila,"
he said, looking away to stare at a blank wall, his mind thinking.
His attention came back to me after a time. "There is more,"
he said. "There is one final stage of our play Kaila. There
is one final piercing, and this pain is the most intense that
you will ever feel in your entire life."
I felt my fear mount, my heart pounded within
me.
"What do you mean Joe?" I stuttered,
afraid to ask. "Do you want to kill me?"
"Only if you want to finish what we started
Kaila," he said soberly.
He was right. There was only one thing that
could finish this. For weeks I had let him hurt me, I let him
revel in my pain. I allowed him to go beyond that barrier that
everyone has, that wall beyond the comfort zone. That zone where
you are nothing but prey, food for the taking.
There was only one ending to this story, and
that was to let him finish. Give my life to him to take away from
me. The only thing that could free me from feelings that were
too intense to bare... the sexual desires that seemed to have
no other answers but ... but to let him kill me.
I agreed, we took a shower, and I helped him
throw the boxes into his car.
He told me that he knew of an out of the way
place by the river that we could go to, so that we could be by
ourselves. All the way there, my mind was flooded with fear. I
just sat there in the passenger seat though, staying quite, not
saying a word. I was so scared, it wasn't of death though. Don't
get me wrong! I was afraid of dying.
Hmmmm.
Do you know that fear that you get when you
wanted something for so long, and then when the moment, just before
all of your desires are answered, you are so nervous that you
can barely help but tremble?
Ha ha, I guess that you can say that I felt
like I was about to win a Miss Universe pageant.
My whole body was shaking. He turned off of
the main road and drove through the heavy timber on a thin dirt
road lined with trees that grew so tight together, that it seemed
to snuff out the moonlight.
I knew that my moment was coming. My flesh
was tingling, I felt so alive. I was not going to see the next
day. I was going to die. Joe was going to hurt me like he has
never hurt anyone. I was his now, his alone.
He stopped the car and gave me his lighter,
and told me to go find some firewood while he prepared. I did
as he told me to. I found enough wood for a small fire and enough
dead leaves to make it burn. My excitement was mounting. I took
off my clothes and tossed them into the fire. I watched everything
that I had burn. My money, my license, my social security card,
everything.
I felt the fire's warmth kiss my naked body.
It felt so warm and gentle against my skin. I just caressed my
own flesh, enjoying my body before the pain began. For the first
and the last time I was sensing myself, my very being.
"You know that no matter what you want,
it is beyond your control," I heard him say as he approached
holding a cardboard box. "There is no turning back now. I
can't afford to let you go."
"I understand," I told him, standing
up, showing my body to him proudly. "I want you to kill me."
Joe sat down the box and walked over to me.
His hands went to my ears, and he began to remove all of my rings,
one by one, our work together coming out in seconds to prepare
me for my final piercings.
"Tie me up Joe," I begged. "Please.
I don't want to get away from you."
"As you wish," he said pulling out
the last ring from my pussy and returning to his box. Soon he
came back with a pair of handcuffs. He backed me into a tree and
lifted my hands way above my head and bound me to a low limb that
was above me, my toes barely touching the ground. He rubbed his
hand over my belly.
"I want to thank you while I have the
chance, Kaila," he said watching me beginning to struggle
for him.
"Don't forget that you are pleasing me
as well," I told him breathlessly. I was ready for this.
So ready, it felt like my entire life was meant for this one moment,
that everything that I had ever done was lead to my ultimate demise
at the hands of my fatal lover.
I watched him return to his box and pull out
some small objects. He slowly came back so that I could see that
he was holding a handful of long iron nails. My fear was rising
with each step closer that he took.
Slowly, he began to push the thick nails into
each of my piercings. He started with my left ear. Even though
they didn't hurt that bad, I still tried to fight him. I tried
to hide my ear behind my arm. I kicked and squealed as the nail
tore each hole wider and wider. He did the second ear; I could
feel the tips of the nails scraping my arms.
He kissed me on the neck. I could feel him
pinching the tight skin below my bellybutton. Then the nailthis
one hurt bad. It paralyzed me as he did it. My back arched and
my whole body began to shudder. The whole time that he was doing
it I could only stare at him in disbelief. I looked down to see
the nail head sunk into my navel and the sharp point dripping
blood, I could feel the unforgiving pain and my blood running
through my pubic hair and down my legs.
He then began to massage my breast, I struggled
as he slowly brought the nail to my hard nipple. I begged for
him to wait, to please spare me but my body craved the pain; I
needed it. He slowly pressed the nail into my nipple, each press
arousing a gasp as my body got tighter and tighter. I barely had
time to catch my breath when he shoved a nail into my other nipple.
I couldn't take anymore! I writhed and screamed
against the bounds. I begged for him to stop. He just sat down
and watched me suffer until I adjusted to the pain enough to calm
down.
I caught my breath as he told me that he had
just one more piercing that he wanted to do before he killed me.
He held up the shiny nail for me to see.
I shook my head, my hair was drenched in sweat.
"No," I said as bravely as I could. "Do the rest
too. Do them all."
"Are you sure?" he asked, putting
the sharp tip up my nose, forcing my head back.
I weakly nodded and closed my eyes as the nail
was stuck threw my nostril.
I winced at the pain, yet still stuck my tongue out for him to
use. My eyes still shut, I felt the warmth of his mouth embrace
it.
His fingers ran through my wet hair. I kissed
him. For it was to be my last kiss. My pain seemed to go away
as the shock from the warmth and the kindness of his kiss consumed
me. Soon it was over though. He slowly pulled away from my lips.
My hunger for him only grew, my desire to be hurt by him utterly
strengthened.
"I love you, Kaila," he said as he
put the tip of the nail to my tongue. I could only stare at him.
The tears welling up in my eyes, yet the nail tearing into my
tongue quickly shut them. I could feel the blood rushing out of
my mouth. I could taste it too, the blood mixed with the iron
nail. I tried to pull my tongue in but the nail just pressed against
my chin.
I felt very faint. I was losing a lot of blood.
I could only moan as I felt the last spike press against my clit.
I felt him press the nail deeper and deeper into me.
I screamed.
The pain...oh the pain. It was immense, the
torture of the nail hitting the bone. I felt my ass quiver first,
then my legs begin to tremble. Finally my whole body began to
spasm. The blood rushing from my pussy. The pain I was in began
to overwhelm me. I grew weaker and weaker until the suffocating
blackness devoured me.
He must have left me for dead. I guess that
a fisherman saw me and radioed the police. I awoke in the hospital.
The doctor told me that I was lucky to be alive.
Later, a cop asked me if I could tell him what
happened. I lied and said that I was just walking home from the
club when I got nabbed by three guys wearing black ski masks.
They threw me in their car and tortured me for hours.
The next thing that I knew, I was on the front
pages of every news paper in the state.
LUCKY LADY BARELY ESCAPES
WITH LIFE!
Ha! Let them think that, I say, and I'll tell
you one more thing. For the first time in my life, I have found
fulfillment. My only hope now is that Joe has seen the newspapers.
He will read that I am still alive.
Then, my friend... then, he will come back
for me....